September 2, 2005

• So, sitting here, just thinking back to 24 yrs ago today....Knew I was going to be induced, because my bloodpressure was so dangerously high, had been on bed rest for 4 months, doped up to bring my bloodpressure down, and it still did not work, so, anyway....Rambling and run-on sentence....Went for my daily Dr. appt on Tues. the 1rst of Sept., the Dr decided the baby could be born, was big enough...strong enough... at 37 weeks...(I told him he would have to pay for the first 2 yrs of private school....cuz' the deadline for starting school was the birthdate of 09/01...and my child would be born on 09/02....a whole year behind just because he chose that day...GRRRRR) Gerald, my ex, washed baby clothes and brought them to me on our bed, to fold...cuz' I was still on bed rest...Did not sleep much that night...too excited, worried, nervous....Got up way early, around 0400...had to be at the Houston Medical Center by 0530....And Gerald had to stop by Hardees to get a cup of coffee and a sausage biscuit...smelled so good, and I couldn't have anything after midnight...BOO! Anyway..... To the labor room...all the fun stuff you have to go through...Caudal did not take, after 4 trys...(the thing they did before the epidural came about...)...so I got a couple of doses of Demerol...UGH!!! Pitocin started...Double UGH!!! UGH!!! Was fully dilated by 1130...But the baby went into fetal distress...not handling the contractions well...Remember flying down the hall on a stretcher to the surgical suites....Time for an Emergency c-section....And by 12:48...after RIP and SPLIT...sorry....Joshua William COleman Brickle was yanked into this world....ALl 6 lb 9 oz of his cute little self...19 1/4 inches long....cute little red headed button....yes his hair was reddish tinted when he was born...then it washed away....ha...after a month or two...cutest little bottom lip, all quivering....WHAT HAPPENED??? I do not remember 24 yrs going by.....Someone slipped a mickey into my gatorade or something... and now, here I am 24 yrs older...Not quite fair....Can't I have a do over, second chance or something?? But I am so proud of who He is and who God has molded into a fine young man, HIs testamony tells that story....I feel like I didn't have too much to do with who he is today...I wasn't always there for him...or the proper example of a motherly role model....kind of self-absorbed, or depressed and zombie-like after the divorce and during nursing school....I regret that terribly!!!!...But it did make him very self-sufficient, in more ways than one...and independent.... If you see Josh today, wish him a very happy birthday.....Will plan a celebration for the next year....more of a mile stone...1/4 century....ARGH!!! Okay, the motherly guilt is swarming all around me....But I will make it up to him next week-end when I see him!!! Thank you God, for blessing me with this special young man....Take him and mold him further into who YOU want him to be....may he find his path and his purpose...as YOU have planned....And may he smile from the inside out...because he is loved by many,,,,,Amen!!

  
  

  Hope the planning session in Marietta goes well tomorrow.... Everyone be safe....Be Blessed....Stay focused....Walk the walk...talk the talk...share God's Love and His Joy with the world....Later...

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